I Survived

I survived...barely. I took him into daycare yesterday and I did not want to leave. He's was smiling and talking and that just made me want to stay there forever with him. I just didn't want to miss anything. Needless to say, as soon as I left the room I cried all the way to my car...then all the way to work...and once I got to work I just shut my door and shed a few more tears. I stayed at work until 4 and then I just couldn't take it anymore! I had to see my little man. And when I picked him up, he was sleeping like an angel!

Today was a little easier, but my heart still hurt when I left him. But I just have to suck it up and realize I have to work. But he has already changed me so much in such a short period of time. I am so focused at work now...I say this as I blog while at work, oops....but I realize now that the better I do at work, the more it will benefit Tyler. And if I can work hard the rest of this year and accomplish my goals, hopefully it will benefit me enough to cut back my hours a little bit next year. Ideally I would like to work about 30 hours.....Frank doesn't know that yet, but after he reads this he will....so let me throw in: Frank have I told you lately how much I love you? I really do...and I might even love you a little more if I cut back my hours next year.

So for the mean time I am surviving. I miss the little monkey so much. All I can think about is I wonder what he's doing. And I hope he doesn't start liking Mrs. Kim and Mrs. Stephanie (his teachers) more than me...I know that sounds silly b/c it isn't possible, but you still wonder. I just love him so much. It amazes me what a different person I am because of him. Everything I do now I want to do ten times better so he will be proud of his mommy.

When I get home I will post some new pictures of my cutie pie...and No Frank that's not you, that's Tyler.....But have I told you how much I love you lately :-)